"Don't worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything.

Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He's done."

Philippians 4:6

Agencies, private facilitators, birth parents, adoptive parents,

Foster care, state systems, courts, and advocates ...

How many people are involved in the making and the outcome of

One final choice?

Who really, can you trust?

Is there any way to accomplish an adoption

Without fear?

In my ten-year journey into understanding the Lord has dealt with me heavily. Some lessons are easy, some are hard. The following is an excerpt from my journal:

That you are trustworthy will be honored.

That your heart is pure, will be revealed

That which you do unto others will be done unto you.

That which you do to the least of your brothers, so you do unto me.

How many times are you called to forgive?

70 X 7

How many times are you called to trust?

70 X 7

How many times are you called to endure?

70 X 7

So whom can you trust?

You can trust that your heart is pure in motivation and centered

On God. You can trust in Him and His work in you.

You cannot worry about others, but only the condition of your own heart.

Don't worry:

Worry is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but won't get you anywhere.

Pray:

Pray first that your heart is pure, for you know not the hearts of others. Pray first on that which you are responsible for, for you know not what others intentions are.

Pray for protection, and for justice. Pray that you are trustworthy.

Thank God:

"In all things, be thankful."

Each day God gives you gifts and blessings.

Don't be like a child who didn't get what it wanted.

Trusting isn't easy. But it's easier to put my trust in God and who I am through Him, rather than strangers. He will never let me down.

I remember the story of the stoning. When the woman was caught being unfaithful and taken to the courtyard for all to throw stones at. And then Jesus said, "Whoever among you who is without sin can cast the first stone."

I think of the blame and the anger and the fight I've engaged in from believing that

the adoption of my son went wrong.

And I realize ... I cannot, nor do I have a right, to

Continue to throw my stones.

I was let down. My expectations were broken. I felt betrayed.

I didn't know if I could ever trust again.

The truth is ... trust begins with me.

I have to trust that God was in that situation.

I have to trust that He led me to the parents of my son.

I have to trust that all things that happened were pre-ordained.

I have to trust that whatever, if anything, I did wrong

will be forgiven through my repentance.

I have to trust in God.

And when I give over to that trust ...

I am filled with relief.

Because when my heart is pure and I've given all to God,

What then do I have to worry about?

Even if it doesn't turn out like I wanted,

And even if I don't see the plan,

I know that it's God working, and not me.

And that's a big load off my soul.

Trusting doesn't necessarily mean that everything is going to work out perfectly.

And if you are in a situation that causes fear and anxiety,

Remember one thing:

God doesn't mess up.

Trust Him.

Credits: Courtney Frey